sleep 

i can't sleep at night anymore. I love sleep. But i can easily sleep till 2 once i am in my bed asleep and have to get up in the morning. I am going to go to the lab and to my computer project tomorrow. It strikes me as odd that my computer is barely 2 years old and already is too old to do some microsoft assignments that are due..... i'm getting old.
I will be twenty in...7 months, i always thought i would be more mature at 20. I hope i grow up alot in 7 months.

Cheers to hoping and updated blogs from craig, kyla, jenni, and jerambo who i am sure have forgotten they are tieing up blogspace.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 12:03 AM
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oh well 

oh well i'm over my crushing now :0)
it's always good to ask and get it out of the way early

Krista Experienced Paradise at 12:27 AM
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i'm a dic 

ted to ryan. hahaha i told him that tonight and he said it wasn't possible to overdose on him. So thats kewl.

Anwyays that is all.


Krista Experienced Paradise at 7:59 PM
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well look what i discovered 

I haven't been taking my paxil and i am almost back to square one so i started them again.....ugh

But with all my problems came a good thing (sort of) i found out i cant count on joel, ever. I am his friend but he isn't mine. He has the friendship from me that every time he has a problem i am there to listen and talk it out and make him feel good again. You would think it would be returned...nope it's not. If i have problems, take them elsewhere. If i'm happy, he turns it into me loving him or something, if i'm pissed he again turns it into me loving him.
Tonight i was telling him about some problems and he went..yeah...sweet....check out this chick i'm talking too. So i do and i'm like ...yeah...whatever. And then i said how i didn't appreciate him ignoring me and blah blah blah and i though he would be there for me when i had a problem cause we're friends and i hope if he does want to date this girl she has no problems or better luck. And he's like krista you know there is nothing between us. And i'm like oh i thought there was friendship, dont i feel stupid assuming that oh wow sorry for ever bothering you king joel. Holy fuck what an idiot. I wish i could cut all emotional ties with him and be done for good, i hate it how i cant. Why do i feel like i need him? beats the hell out of me...literally.

So i'd like to take him out of my "friend" section of the brain but i dunno why i cant. I have maybe 5 people up there.....uhhhh and i know i can call any of them but these problems are about depression and ms and joel was the one who was supposed to know best on how to help me caues he's been there. I guess he doesn't care enough to be my friend.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 10:32 AM
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The View from a 17th Floor Closet 

The View from a 17th Floor Closet

Jenni mentioned you coming to stay kyla. Do it or fucking pay the consequences. If it happens you dont come i will advise you what they are then....but be afraid....be very afraid.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 1:18 AM
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i like my new friend ryan 

he eats tofu and hardly any meat and thinks a little bit like me. I spilt coffee on his kakis...i was kicking a tim's cup. Then i lent him my stain remover for him to get it out. He also showed me where the library was. *swoon* lol

Krista Experienced Paradise at 11:59 PM
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well well well 

tonight i decided to venture out on my own cause there is no one else here that i met that is 19. So i decided that i didn't want to go too far so i thought i would see what was going on at the gorsebrook. So i go in....and there is like no one there. I ask the guy at the door (who is a part of the smusa) i'm like hey is this place closed? and he's like well it's a semi private function. And i'm like...oh shit. And he is like "did you just want a place to drink or what?" and i'm like...yeah. So he got me to show id and sent me in. So i'm thinking this is great...here i am a frosh at a private party for the frosh leaders.....fantastic.

So i go in get a drink and talk to the bartender who is HOT (steve) then i go down and sit at a table of boys and say "hey i'm crashing your party, i'm from the miramichi and i needed a drink" , they all laugh and say they have met people from the chi before who liked to drink or else they have been there before and have drank themselves silly. Ahhh i am starting to miss home.

ANYWAYS so i am meeting people all night and i meet this good looking guy named ...named...ANDY yeah thats his name and he likes to go to this all night rave place and smoke dope, he's a real nice guy, i like him. Then there are these two girls that i am definatly going to hang out with again. They are in 3rd and 4th year. Gill and Sara. They live in student housing type apartment thingers in my building. gill is on 9th floor and sara is on this floor. I am going to go look them up tomorrow. (i am drunk writing this now so i can remember who these people are tomorrow) then ther eis their friend Jody who looks kinda asian but i dont think she is. , her hair is just cut in like a bob around her chin...looks rad. Then there is a girl named Jennifer who has pink streaks in her hair and wants to meet this guy she has been talking to on the net for two years at a saint fx game who he plays for on the football team. And then there is gills roomate stephanie. They are all great girls who know how to have a great time...and they dance so that is awesome.

Talked to the student ass pres..tyler...he seems sweet and soem guy named rich and this guy named paul archer who is a starter on the huskies football team and we talked a buit about rugby and football....which came to like no conclusion cept that i'd be good at football. Then i talked to the bartender some more... i like to see his smile..it's nice. And then i talked to Shane Paris who was the frosh co ordinator and then so to a guy named zack and some guy named....john and a guy named....i dunno but he was wearing a nija turtle tshirt.

I met a triplet named corrin, the most annoying guy i have ever seen...even more than mark his name is will i think..or maybe matt. There is a guy named drew but he goes by moose. I am not sure why except for the fact that he sings a song about a moose which i think is supposed to be something sexual, but i dont really get it. A girl that is really loud and fun , her name is teri lynn. Annnnd i met a bunch of other people but i cant really remember who is who or any of that stuff.

So anyways a night that started out by myself MAY have made me soem decent friends, so i think it turned out alright.

GOOOOD NIGHT!!! i miss you kyla!~!!!

Krista Experienced Paradise at 1:12 AM
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sam roberts featuring BUBBLES 

Just got back from the sam roberts concert here in the SMU gym. Was a pretty decent show, got to hear brother down! But the highlight of my evening was hearing Bubbles (from the trailor park boys) sing his kitty song. The only words i can remember is tickle his belly not once but twice. And he kept saying lets fucking fuck this place up and shit. Oh man it was the best. Sam roberts is the best looking sweaty guy there is...well apart from silverchair.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 12:54 AM
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I have arrived 

So i am here and my stuff is in this room but it is no way "put away". It is out of my way but it's not in it's place. Mom still has to bring some more of my stuff down. I just helped a 3rd year girl (first year here) from brandon or something move into the floor above me. I am awesome. Her name is amy. I also met a nice girl that seems to be ok her name is catherine. Tamara is my ra and she is pretty nice. Other than that i have met lots of people but i haven't really clicked with anyone else in the way that i think it will turn into a friendship or something. I finally got all my stuff straightened out today so now i am just going to look for second hand books. I will write soon.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 2:58 PM
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