I was thinking 

this morning about my jaw pain. I remember reading that humans can hold emotion in and cause physical pain. Usually the body part inflicted with the pain has a bit to do with the emotional problem.

So, I have been noticing that I constanly hold my jaw sooooo tight. Lockdown. Perhaps that is why I have to crack it when I want to open my mouth to speak or open it for anything for that matter. Maybe it isn't the detists fault at all. Maybe it is just a coincidence that it has been hurting just after I went to him.

Perhaps. This is just a stab in the dark but if this pain IS pent up emtion with something to do with my mouth, then could it be my feelings about not speaking to joel? Or could it be my fatness and my body is pissed off and trying to lock down the entry hole. Maybe me is pissed off at my fatness. Who knows.

Also I had a dream last night that I was in China. I was using my 5 phrases I learned. Then people started speaking to me a mile a minute and I couldn't understand. So I got them to write it on a paper for me so I could read it. For some reason I could understand written mandarin but not spoken. Wierd. But I can understand the english type written mandarin, where it is written with english letters to sound the way the word is supposed to be pronounced. I think I will look for an english/mandarin dictionary or phrase book. I will be taking it at school anyways, so it should come in handy.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 9:07 AM
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So I got my room assignment 

For the next year, and prolly longer I will be living in room 1, suite 8, 8th floor of Loyola. So that means 8-8-1. Yay. I am far from the top (there are 21 floors) so I wont have long elavator waits to get to class and if I have to evacuate during a fire alarm it won't be such a pain in the ass.

Last year I was only on 4 and people made you feel like shit for using the elavator. That didnt make sense. Just because there are 21 floors, it doesnt make carrying my heavy laundry up 4 floors of stairs with acess keys and doors all the way up. I mean when these people go to the Student Center (5 floors) HAVE YOU EVER seen anyone take the stairs up to the SMUSA office (5th floor). No... I didn't think so. I have never even seen anyone ever walk it up to the 3rd floor. Everyone takes the old run down elavators that take forever to open and close. Also there are only 2 of them and sometimes it can be a huse pain in the ass waiting. Well in Loyola there are 4 (unless one is broken which one always is...it just rotates which one it is) and they are super fast. So why the hell shouldn't I take it to the fourth floor. Well I am sure as hell taking it to the 8th. No one can say shit about that.

This is gonna be great.

Well I think I will be moving down September 5th (Sunday), unless something else happens and we decide to go Monday. Classes only start on Wednesday. Monday is labour day though and nothing will be open. If i go down Sunday I will have to get all settled in and bring some food with me to survive until Tuesday. Or else I could just eat out for a few days. But I really have to conserve funds this year. I will have to get a student line of credit this year, but in a way I am kind of glad. Paying for last year was a close one, and I just the other week paid it off. So, as of now I have enough money to pay for my first semester of apartment. $2375. oh and a whole extra $100. so I have to get this much more money:
$5500 tuition
$2575 second semestor apartment (the first semester had my $250 deposit taken off)
$600 books
$1500 food
= $10175
so that totals $12550 for the year.
That means something must be missing cause last year cost me almost $14,000
what could it be
hmm lets see, membership fees to clubs... I'll say $50
ooo attending conferences $200 to $300
so lets say $350
I will need to buy some new clothes somewhere in there $300
and I might want to get a little bit of money put on a meal card for exam time $100.
$750.
So that equals $13,300.

Sounds good. Am I forgetting anything?
Oh yes and my allowance will suffice for my living expenses of things like toothbrush, toothpaste, beer, and the occasional movie. $30 a week. so thats...$960 for the school year. so that is ...
$14,260 for this year. That sounds right. and really livable. And I dont think it will even cost me that much because I am going to have my own laundry stuff and wont be feeding my money into the laundry room at school. Whahahaha.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 9:03 AM
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ahahahah 

ahahahaha so funny. Kyla man I was talking about cheezer nuggets.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 3:22 PM
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and australia was like wtf? 

I was thinking today, in two years my pain is not any less. It has numbed though, I can see the sense in not crying. Although when I speak about it and allow myself to hear my words, I can easily cry.

But I think I have done well to being numb and to moving on with life. Moving on with love is what I am still struggling with.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 4:18 PM
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Well I am one of the last remaining 

but I did get a LJ account so I can comment on peoples things.

How to make a chasekrista

Ingredients: 1 part competetiveness 3 parts silliness 1 part empathy

Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Top it off with a sprinkle of caring and enjoy!

Krista Experienced Paradise at 3:36 PM
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I am the President 

I have been asked to be the Local Committee President of AIESEC Halifax. This is huge.

I am still thinking about it because it is a huge responsibility. This isnt just a student organization that has fun and meets when they want and don't really make a difference. This is an international organization which has huge ties with large companies. This is a organization that is responsible for getting people jobs overseas and getting people from over seas jobs here.

I will need to spend about 30 hours a week on this, recruiting members, organizing meetings with the board of advisors, talking to local companies and making sure everything is going smooth with exchanges. This is going to be like a full time job while going to school and doing my very hard 3rd year. I will need to recruit some really good members to help delegate all the responsibilities out.

It is only 51 days until I leave for China. I am making good progress on the fund raising. I have approx $2000 done, with $2000 left to go.

I think my life is takign off. I dunno if I am ready for that, cause I was expecting to coast for 2 years and take off to Australia. I have a feeling that big opportunities are coming, and I just know my luck. They will be the best thing for my future and I will have to put off Australia. But I won't do that.... at least... I dont think I will.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 10:51 AM
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you should take a hold of our future in canada 

and educate yourself and vote on June 28th. (or is it 29th lol)

This is for all the cookies. Who do we want to run the country? Someone who has run it into the ground and decreased spending on education by something like 62% and has let tuition rise at 5 times the rate of inflation.

Or do we want a party that has the same old ideas that never work and really can't with the kind of fundage and situations the liberals have gotten us in. Yeah that wont work. Why should we vote for either of them when almost everyone in the parties are old men who look like they are made for sitting for long periods of time, can't remember their own childrens names are are on their last wrinkly breath?

Nah. I want some new ideas, because obviously the old ones are working. I want a party that has some relatively young blood. I want a party that cares about what young people have to say, and didnt just start caring a few months before the election, but who have been fighting along side us at protests to lower tuition against the PC's or Liberals.

All I can say is, my mind is not made up. But for some refreshing political reads go to www.ndp.ca and click on the ideas tab. Down at the bottom is a pdf file of their platform. Since we do not have a representative for the NDP in Miramichi, I dunno if we can vote for them or not, but at least you will know what your other options are in the grand scheme of things.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 9:04 AM
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what was i going to say... 

ummmm i forget i really do.

it was important i think, and i wanted to say it.
oh,, the black horse.. nah i dont think that was it.
.....

i'll be back later if i remember.

Krista Experienced Paradise at 8:45 AM
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